It's Complicated



It's Complicated
A dog
killed a cat.

More complicated
Her dog killed
my cat.

My close friend's dog
killed
my beloved cat
in my house.

Even more complicated,
a friendship which
had its issues 
before her dog
killed my cat.

She lied about the dog
before she left him
in my care
 in my house
Where brutally this morning
he killed my cat.

The case of murder
is more complicated, Judge,
than just the facts
There is betrayal, lies, evasion
the killer
still in my care.

Who is at fault
The dog I have known for ten
the owner I have known for forty
the cat being too trusting
or me for trusting them all.

It's complicated
I am less one cat
less a trusted friend
but still must
care for the dog
that killed
my cat.

Rest in Peace, Scrappy.
j. binford-bell
December 18, 2014

Comments

  1. UnknownDecember 20, 2014 at 3:37 AM

    I cannot even imagine how you are feeling having to care for the murderer. Not to mention being lied to by someone you trusted.

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  2. Ien in the KootenaysDecember 20, 2014 at 11:53 AM

    Beautifully expressed. Please, in the middle of grief, don't go blaming yourself! So, you are trusting? In my book that is a good thing. Dutch saying: As the Host is, (the word refers to a commercial host) so he trusts his guests. You are by nature honest and expect the same. Not a bad thing.

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