Saturday, January 14, 2017

Who I am January 14, 2017

Unclear
I slept well last night. No dreams I could remember. No waking up in the middle of the night with hamster wheel thinking. Undefined fears. Sometimes it is the exceptions which make you realize what you have been dealing with.

I have changed my morning schedule to allow time to check legislation and write my congressional representatives. Computer time is more directed to research and posts to a group of like interests. I have been out with my camera less. A painting I have begun stands neglected in the studio.

I am more easily frustrated. 

And I have so many questions I cannot get answered. I am manic at times trying to google answers to questions google has not considered.

I would rather not answer the telephone.

I have five buds on my butterfly amaryllis and I have not photographed the first one beginning to open. Just remembered it as I typed this blog.

I think one of the things I want to really hold on to is my creative expression. And maybe those things need to go on my ToDo list so I don't forget them amid the anxiety and frustration and fear in this drink the Kool Aid era.

And I need to develop a strategy to avoid going tharned like the rabbits in Watership Down.


1 comment:

  1. Everything is on shakey ground. I am very afraid. When you can't get answers something sinister is afoot.

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